Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Welcome 2009
I was so relieved when 2006 ended. I just knew 2007 would be better.
I was wrong.
I decided to give hope a chance, and at the close of 2007, I decided 2008 was going to be better.
Once again, I was wrong.
Each year gets harder. I get older, and I face newer problems as my old problems worsen. The new exacerbates the old, the old exacerbates the new, and right now? I'm in the craziest state I think I've ever been in. I'm tired. I'm beaten down. I'm wondering how much more I can handle.
But once again, I'm giving hope a chance.
2009 will be better. It will, it just will.
Life is what we make it. It's about what we do with our circumstances and whether or not we choose to prevail. We can't control much, but we must be determined to do the best with what we do have control over. And we must be determined to remember that we're stronger than we think we are, and above all, an incomprehensible strength is holding us up while our wings are mending.
So, closing a year full of heartache and joy, new life and goodbyes, renewed strength and unexpected defeats, here's to 2008 and, amazingly, here is a bright hope for 2009.
We can do this.
Break down the walls that are you think are keeping the horror out. Yes, they might be serving your purpose well, but do you realize how much goodness and joy lies right behind them? Bad isn't as bad when you have extra good on your side. :)
So lean on God, lean on your friends and family, hold tight onto hope - as meager as it may be - and believe in yourself. Believe in love. Believe in life.
O Love beyond Compare,Thou art good when thou givest,
when thou takest away,
when the sun shines upon me,
when night gathers over me.
Thou hast loved me before the foundation of the world,
and in love didst redeem my soul;
Thou dost love me still,
in spite of my hard heart, ingratitude, distrust.
Thy goodness has been with me another year,
leading me through a twisting wilderness,
in retreat helping me to advance,
when beaten back making sure headway.
Thy goodness will be with me in the year ahead;
I hoist sail and draw up anchor,
With thee as the blessed pilot of my future as of my past.
I bless thee that thou hast veiled my eyes to the waters ahead.
If thou hast appointed storms of tribulation,
< span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(51, 0, 0);"> thou wilt be with me in them;
If I have to pass through tempests of persecution and temptation,
I shall not drown;
If I am to die,
I shall see thy face the sooner;
If a painful end is to be my lot,
grant me grace that my faith fail not;
If I am to be cast aside from the service I love,
I can make no stipulation;
Only glorify thyself in me whether in comfort or trial,as a chosen vessel meet always for thy use.
Coming over from lost and found. Just wanted to say I hear you. Each year I tell myself it has to be better. I guess forever the optimist. I hope yours truly is.
posted by battynurse on January 01, 2009 at 11:02am
Hey Amanda, I hope 2009 will be a better year for you. Don’t forget you can lean on your web 2.0 friends too! Cheers.
posted by HeyStephanie on January 11, 2009 at 5:20pm