Sunday, January 24, 2010
To be free
The Notebook is on TV tonight. We have it on DVD, but for some reason watching it on TV is good, too. It's one of my favorite stories - boy meets girl, dad says girl too good for boy, boy and girl split up, think about each other forever... until they meet again and fall back in love. Something like that.
But anyways, for some reason I liked this scene tonight...
"Say I'm a bird!"
To feel that free. To dance around in the water, making no sense at all, and enjoying every minute of it. Wanting everyone else to join in and experience what you're feeling. Free.
I don't feel free right now. I feel chained down to a degree I'm resultingly becoming apathetic towards, chained down to some place a thousand miles from my comfort zone, forced to throw every free moment or feeling of freedom far away. I feel chained down to a relationship that should be deeper, and would be deeper, farther, if it weren't for us being chained down. Rules, regulations, traditions, status quos. Complete crap if you ask me. Why can't I get this degree on my time? Why am I "late," "slow," when really this is the best I can do? Why can't the truest, deepest love produce cash, securities, and benefits? Why can't unsurpassable, deep, yearning love equal marriage, true togetherness? Why is it all about money? Jobs. Obligations. And why do other people have to be so opinionated? Why do we tread carefully, trying not to let our loved ones down? Why do strangers look at us with confused eyes? I'd perform better for them, for me, for us, if I wasn't chained down. If I was free. Like a bird, like a butterfly, like a dream.
Oh, to be free...
Hi Amanda, I wanted to participate in the upcoming PFAM that you are hosting, but for the life of me I can’t find a contact me link on your blog so I can send you an email. Help! :-)
posted by Selena on January 25, 2010 at 8:37am
IF YOU’RE A BIRD, I’M A BIRD!!!
*Preferably a Dodo Bird…
posted by Nikki on January 26, 2010 at 1:08pm