Friday, July 18, 2008

and we’ve only just begun :)

our tiny little family :)

OnE yEaR enGagEd!

So I went into Hallmark the other day and asked where I would find engagement anniversary cards. I cannot even describe the look I got from the saleslady and I'd love to remember the stuttered words she tried to respond with, but in retrospect, I guess I should have known better than to ask.

Most people aren't engaged for a long time. Come to think of it, I can't think of many who actually have "engagement anniversaries." I've just gotten used to the fact that Jonathan and I will be engaged for like, ever. Not that we want to be. We're just being smart about it. I need to finish my nursing degree and we need to get a few other things squared away so we can start our marriage out when we are both ready to dedicate all of our resources to it. I won't sit here and tell you all of our reasons why - trust me, we go back and forth all the time. But for us, it IS the right thing to do, and although it's really hard at times, we are sticking to our date of October 2, 2010, and as of today, we have just lived through the first year of the wait!!

We couldn't be happier or more absolutely, hopelessly, way past senselessly in love. They say trials make you stronger, and this relationship has definitely been through it. Not in personal arguments or whatever, but just in life issues we've had to go through. Each and every time, we get through the trials together. We're stronger together, and we are just so comfortable in each other's love.

I spent some time on Wordle with my old journals, and using some key words that reminded me of us, I made this little piece. It means a lot to me and I hope Jonathan likes it when he sees it. :)

And digging through my computer to find a picture for this post, I couldn't help but smile when I found this one.... it's not in focus but I don't really care. That ring right there, it is exactly what I have wanted ever since I ever got into the idea of jewelry. One beautiful diamond on a little band.... all I wanted, and most definitely what he gave me. And it's not about just the jewelry. It could be smaller or have side stones or not be the perfect ring, and that would still be okay, because it would still stand for one thing. Us. And it would still symbolize one concept. Forever. I used to think the whole "the circle has no end" thing was cheezy, but lately I'm a big believer in forever.

Really think about it.

Forever.

It has no end. Never ever.

So as far as I'm concerned, we belong to each other since one year ago today, and never will we be another's. Forever lasts in this life and into the next because it is without capacity or limits. It's infinite. And that is really what I have on my finger. Good luck if you want me to take my ring off even for a second. It's to me now what my scrawny patched up stuffed animal was to me when I was a baby. As long as it's with me, I know I'll be okay.

Just like as long as my guy is with me, I know I'll be okay.

My mom always said when you find the right one, you know. I laughed at her and told her that couldn't be true. That only happened in Disney movies right? Well, I hate to say it, but I'll say it here for all the world to see: Mom was right. And one day maybe I'll be telling our girls the same thing.

So here's to so many more years of this.... when it's this good, it's definitely worth waiting for.

Oh, and by the way... I found a card. Nope, it didn't say "Happy Engagement Anniversary," but it had a lovely little cartoon that was pretty close to our story (which started almost 4 years ago!) so I finally decided to go with that. Cute?

And a little video that means a little something extra to Jonathan and I...

I love you with all my heart.