Thursday, October 02, 2008

Are you watching??

Sarah practiced so hard...

the day of the date

Today is the day of the date, our date. The date that Jonathan and I will become husband and wife. Two years from this very second, we will be married. In three years, well, we will be celebrating our first anniversary of being married.

Photo gratefully used with permission from our future wedding photographer, Genevieve Nisly. Isn't she fabulous?

It's funny, we are so in love that it's almost like we're married now but at the same time, we can't wait for these next two years to pass. The way we are synchronized is nothing to take lightly. We are each other's strength, silence, and encouragement. We have been through enough to know that if we lean on each other and trust in the One above us, there is absolutely nothing in the world that can overcome us. Our love has been tested - oh, has it been tested - but it's been found as solid and true. Family, friends, health, education, money, even our own inner selves... so many things have tried to tear us apart sometime over the course of our relationship. We have sacrificed in huge ways and experienced major growing pains to get to where we are today. Why? Because we value our love that much. The best things in life are worth fighting for, right? I'm not sure, but I do know that if the end result is this, then yes, no tear, no battle made the price too high to pay.

Today, my heart is humble and so very grateful. We've been together over 4 years now, engaged for nearly 15 months, and I still have this feeling inside that this is too good to be true. This one thing in my life is one of those dreams I feel I cannot shake. Is it real? Is it really happening to me? What did I do to deserve a soulmate like this? How in the world was I so blessed? I never thought Mom was right when she said you'll just know when you find that right one. Sorry, Mom. I believe you now.

No matter what, Jonathan is always there for me. Even when I'm at my worst, someone still adores me. When I want to give up, I go on because I know someone is leaning on me. Even when we both have had bad days and are exhausted from the weight of the world on our shoulders, we run to each other and find safety and peace, courage to continue on.

His dreams are mine, and mine are his. Nothing is solely mine or solely his anymore, it is all ours. If one of us is not okay, neither is the other. If you mess with one of us, you better be ready to face the other. We do just about everything together and know what we're doing when we're apart. We are all snuggly and send mushy text messages... yes, fine, we are "that" couple.

And we will be way past 730 days from now.

Two lifetimes down, two years to go.

Alone, we're not much, but together? We can change the world.

Just wait and see. :)

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

welcome little angel

Her parents are good friends of my fiancé and I. Jonathan works with her daddy and we've all known each other for years. This angel's been a long time coming. It's so beautiful to see a baby who is not only loved but who was dreamed of and planned for.

You're blessed, little girl. You're only a few days old, but soon you'll see.

Welcome to the world. Our world. The best world any little girl could ever have.

So many are excited to watch you grow. So many love you. So many will watch over you and pray for you every day of your life.

I was working at the hospital the day she was born so I got to see her right away. I must say, the miracle of a new life never grows old. You can believe what you want, but I know these little people come right from heaven into our world. They come right from the arms of God into ours, I'm truly convinced.

I know you're tiny, but please, Maddie girl, tell me. What was it like up there? Can you remember? Were you friends with an angel who wasn't quite ready to come to earth yet? A little girl with big brown eyes, a big heart, and a trusting soul? She was probably pretty smart and definitely feisty and full of life. Do you remember her? I'm sure you do. I hate to bother you, but please, tell me one thing... Is she on her way? Did she say she was coming? Or was she going to wait for us up there? Please, just try to remember that one thing...

We love you Madison!